Friday, May 6, 2011

Happy

Not me...but it shows how I feel! Photo via Thinkstock


I am happy!

I can’t believe how very happy I am in this moment. It fills me all the way to my core. It’s my Mother’s Day gift to myself…peace, contentment and happiness.

It’s been such a long time coming. I have been dealt some pretty heavy blows over the past 5 years and with each and every one I have lost a little bit of myself. I forgot who I was and how to feel happy. I forgot how to enjoy life and those around me. But through dedication…dedication to myself, my son & my marriage I have found my way back to myself.

I have learned how to love myself again…who I am, what I look like, what I do and how I act. I accept my faults and try not to dwell on them. I accept others around me for who they are and do my best not the try to change them. I love the people that I have chosen to surround myself with and look forward to what the future may bring me.

I laugh. Man, do I laugh. And it feels good. Uplifting & freeing. I find myself laughing and enjoying what is around me on a daily basis.

I also allow myself to cry, but I don’t sink down into the depths of sadness that I used to. I use crying as a release. A way for me to release tension & sadness. And then I move on. I don’t let the sadness linger. I had to learn how to do this because I allowed my depression to live for so long…but I did learn it. And I am changed because of this.

So all in all, I am happy. I love my life and the place that I am in. I feel joy everyday from both the little and the big things. This is the place that I was meant to be...the place that I had thought that I would never find again, but I did. I found it and I want to stay here.

I. Am. Happy.



Two of the reasons that I am so happy!



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9 comments:

  1. Happiness can be a trick to find. I'm glad you're feeling it! I think I am too...

    I think I'll scream aloud now!

    Newly following via FTLOB!

    Baby Talk without the Babble

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  2. Glad you're feeling good - treasure it, because it's such a beautiful feeling! Happy Mother's day!!

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  3. Happiness is always nice! I feel like I need to learn to let go of certain things, and just accept who I am hahahaha I'm getting better though and reading this definitely helped!!

    Newly following from FTLOB! ;)

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  4. Happy Mothers' Day to you Jen - and so nice to meet you! Found my way to you from FTLOB - what fun!

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  5. Jen,

    It sounds like you're really embracing life. It makes me happy to hear about people that are doing so. There is so much negativity in the world... thanks for killing a little of it.

    Happy Mother's Day!

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  6. Nice to see someone enjoying life!

    Hi from London, following you from FTLOB

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  7. Stopping by via FTLOB! And so glad I did.. this post is marvelous - love "happy" posts :)
    Happy mother's day!!!

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  8. I love happy. I love happy posts. You've made me happy reading this.

    Have a happy happy day! Happy Mother's Day!

    Stopping by from FTLOB.

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  9. i LOVE happy, and that you are so fully in the midst of it now. good for you, so much love and joy your way :)

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