Happy

Not me...but it shows how I feel! Photo via Thinkstock

I am happy!

I can’t believe how very happy I am in this moment. It fills me all the way to my core. It’s my Mother’s Day gift to myself…peace, contentment and happiness.

It’s been such a long time coming. I have been dealt some pretty heavy blows over the past 5 years and with each and every one I have lost a little bit of myself. I forgot who I was and how to feel happy. I forgot how to enjoy life and those around me. But through dedication…dedication to myself, my son & my marriage I have found my way back to myself.

I have learned how to love myself again…who I am, what I look like, what I do and how I act. I accept my faults and try not to dwell on them. I accept others around me for who they are and do my best not the try to change them. I love the people that I have chosen to surround myself with and look forward to what the future may bring me.

I laugh. Man, do I laugh. And it feels good. Uplifting & freeing. I find myself laughing and enjoying what is around me on a daily basis.

I also allow myself to cry, but I don’t sink down into the depths of sadness that I used to. I use crying as a release. A way for me to release tension & sadness. And then I move on. I don’t let the sadness linger. I had to learn how to do this because I allowed my depression to live for so long…but I did learn it. And I am changed because of this.

So all in all, I am happy. I love my life and the place that I am in. I feel joy everyday from both the little and the big things. This is the place that I was meant to be...the place that I had thought that I would never find again, but I did. I found it and I want to stay here.

I. Am. Happy.

Two of the reasons that I am so happy!